#🌠Khwab udano ki🌠#

 Date 📅:-26/2020 Time:-1:00 AM "Meri pyari diary, aaj 15 October hai. Beti ki Chhati ka din hai. Aise toh Chhati 19 din mein hoti hai, par mayke mein Papa ki tabiyat theek nahi thi aur Mummy ko wahan jana tha, isliye humne 15 din par hi ye rasam kar li. Mummy ke jaane ke baad, pichle 4 din se main apni nanhi si jaan ko akele lekar so rahi hoon. Dard mein mera sharir toot raha hai, taanke abhi thik se bhare nahi hain, par kisi ko koi farq nahi padta. Jab 20-wa din hua, tab ghar mein devar bhi aaye huye the. Mujhe umeed thi ki koi toh kahega, 'Tum aaram karo,' par sab khamosh rahe. Kitchen ki Wo Dehleez aur Mere Aansu: Doctor ne saaf mana kiya tha ki operation ke baad sidhiyan upar-neeche nahi karni hai, par meri sunne wala kaun tha? Main dard se karah rahi thi, meri beti ro rahi thi aur main kitchen mein khadi hokar khana bana rahi thi. Jab maine rote huye kaha ki main khana banane ja rahi hoon, toh wahan se madat ki jagah farmaish aayi—'Baigan-tamatar bana lena aur ye...

 Date 📅:-16/2020 Time:-11:42 PM Meri pyari diary, aaj delivery ke ek hafte baad main fir se likh rahi hoon, par mera mann aur sharer dono bahut dard mein hain. Sab keh rahe hain ki normal delivery hui hai toh sab thik hai, par mera dard kisi ko dikh nahi raha. Normal delivery ke waqt jo mera chota operation hua tha, uske taanke (stitches) fir se fat gaye hain. Ek hafte baad ye sab hona mere liye kisi sadme se kam nahi hai. Chalne-phirne mein toh takleef thi hi, par ab bathroom jane mein bhi jo dard hota hai, use main shabdon mein bayan nahi kar sakti. Sabse zyada dukh is baat ka hai ki mera ye dard kisi ko nazar nahi aa raha. Sabko lag raha hai ki main thik hoon, par mere andar kya beet rahi hai, wo sirf main hi jaanti hoon. Ab mujhe un fatte huye taanko ko fir se thik karwane aur naye taanke lagwane ke liye wapas hospital jana pad raha hai. Ek maa ke liye us nanhin si jaan ko sambhalna aur khud is halat mein dobara hospital ki deewaron ke beech jana bahut hi dardnak hai. Main ye ...

 Date 📅:-9/2020 Time:-2:30 AM "6 October ka wo din main kabhi nahi bhool sakti. Jab main hospital pahunchi, toh wahi purana raag shuru ho gaya. Doctor ne phir wahi kaha, 'Tumhara waqt nikal gaya hai, ab operation hi hoga.' Unhe meri takleef nahi dikh rahi thi, bas apni purani mentality dikh rahi thi. Main us din nashta karke gayi thi, shayad isliye unhone foran operation nahi kiya. Apno ka Saath aur Akelapan: Meri saas do-teen ghante ruk kar chali gayin. Jab pati ne pucha ki wo ghar ja rahi hain, toh maine kaha jaane dijiye... kaun sa wo meri koi madad kar deti hain. Meri beti bhi unke saath ghar chali gayi ye keh kar ki 'Mama, main baby lekar aaungi.' Hospital ke us kamre mein main phir akeli thi, par mere saath Baba Shyam ka vishwas tha. Wo Farishta Nurse aur Umeed ki Kiran: Raat ko kismat ne karvat li. Ek purani nurse thin jinki night shift thi. Unhone jab mujhe check kiya toh muskurakar kaha, 'Kaun kehta hai operation hoga? Aapka toh normal hi hoga. Aap gh...

Date:-3/2020 Time:-12:41 AM  "Log puchte hain ki normal delivery ke liye kya kaam kiya? Maine jo kiya, wo shayad koi soch bhi nahi sakta. Subah 5 baje se uthkar ghar ki zimmedariyan shuru ho jati thin. 9 mahine ki pregnancy, bhari sharir, aur upar se niche tak ki wo 48 sidhiyaan (12 steps ke 4 round). Roz un par jhadu-pocha karna, sabke kapde dhona aur unhe arrange karke rakhna—kya ise kaam nahi kehte? Farmaishein aur Khamosh Bhook: Ghar mein sabke liye unki farmaish ka khana banana meri responsibility thi. Par jab mujhe bhook lagti thi, toh main chup-chap pani pikar apni bhook ko control kar leti thi. Kyun? Kyunki ek dana khane par bhi 10 baatein sunni padti thin—'ye toh kaju kishmish khati hai, ye juice piti hai, ye phal khati hai.' Bahar se sabko chamak-dhamak dikhti thi, par andar hi andar main kaise apne bacche ko paal rahi thi, wo sirf main aur mera Baba Shyam jaante hain. Pati ka Drama aur Mera Akelapan: In sabke beech, pati ka alag hi drama chalta tha. Unka ye kehn...

 Date 📅:-1/2020 Time:-1:00 AM "Hospital ke wo 3 din mere liye kisi imtihan se kam nahi the. Doctor mujh par gussa ho rahi thin ki main date nikalne ke baad bhi admit kyun nahi hui, par unhe kya pata tha ki ek aurat ke dil mein kya chalta hai. Hospital mein charon taraf COVID ka khauf tha aur main wahan akeli bechain thi. Nurse ki Salah aur Operation ka Darr: Wahan jo nurse thi, wo mujhe pehle se jaanti thin kyunki meri pehli delivery bhi unhone hi karwayi thi. Wo mujhse thodi hi badi thin, shayad 42-45 saal ki. Unhone mujhse saaf kaha, 'Dekho, abhi tumhara pet pura tight hai aur delivery mein waqt hai. Tum yahan se ghar jao. Agar yahan admit rahogi toh majbooran humein operation karna pad jayega. Jab asli dard (labor pain) shuru ho, tabhi turant aana, tab tak normal delivery ke chance rahenge.' Operation ka naam sunte hi main darr gayi. Main nahi chahti thi ki mere bacche ki shuruat kisi surgery se ho. Isliye maine unki baat maani aur ghar jaane ka faisla kiya. Homeopathi...