Diwali, Anniversary aur Thakaan ka Wo Safar

 Date 📅 15/2020

Time:3:30 AM

1. 14 November 2020: Roshni ke Beech Chupa Mera Andhera

Aaj Diwali hai. Poori duniya diye jala rahi hai, mithaiyan baant rahi hai, par meri Diwali toh is digital diary ke pannon mein qaid hai. Rohit ke saath rishte aur ghar ki zimmedariyon ke beech, tyohar ki khushi kahin kho gayi hai. Donon nanhi pariyaan saath hain, wahi meri duniya hain, par unhe dekh kar mann bhar aata hai ki kya yahi unki Diwali hai? Na koi dhoom-dham, na koi shaan-o-shaukat. Bas ek thaka dene wala din aur aane wali kaali raat.

2. Raat ke 3:30 Baje: Jab Duniya Soti hai, Main Jaagti hoon

14 November ki raat beet chuki hai aur 15 ki subah hone wali hai. Ghadi mein 3:30 baj rahe hain. Meri chhoti beti sone ka naam nahi le rahi. Wo mujhe bilkul sone nahi deti, aur sacchi baat toh ye hai ki main khud bhi nahi so paati. Mann mein itni chinta aur thakaan hai ki neend aankhon se koso door hai. Is sunsan raat mein, jab sab gehri neend mein hain, main apni beti ko god mein liye baithi hoon. Shareer toot raha hai, par ek maa ko rukne ki ijaazat kahan milti hai?

3. Anniversary: Ek Khaamosh Din

Inhi dinon mein hamari anniversary bhi aayi. Log kehte hain anniversary khaas hoti hai, par mere liye ye sirf ek tareekh thi. Kuch khaas nahi tha is baar. Na koi tohfa, na koi badi baatein. Bas wahi purani thakaan aur wahi rozana ki kashmakash. Rohit ke saath ki is anniversary mein sirf khamoshi thi. Kabhi socha nahi tha ki jindagi itni neeraj (boring) aur thaka dene wali ho jayegi ki ek khas din ka ehsaas bhi mar jayega.

November 2020: Anniversary ki Tanhai aur Diwali ka Bojh

Added Content (In Paragraphs):

"6 November 2020 ko meri beti sirf ek mahine ki hui thi. Mera sharir abhi bhi un do-do baar lage ta kon (stitches) ke dard se karah raha tha. Par hospital se nikalte hi jaise duniya badal gayi. November ka mausam thanda hone laga tha, par mere liye aaram ka koi naam-o-nishaan nahi tha. Usi mahine Diwali thi aur 16 November ko meri anniversary. Jahan ek nayi maa ko kam se kam sawa mahine (40 days) ka bistar par aaram milna chahiye, wahan mere hathon mein ghar ki safai aur zimmedariyan thama di gayi.

Akelepan mein Diwali ki Safai:

Log kehte hain Diwali khushiyon ka tyohar hai, par mere liye wo thakaan ka sailab tha. Ek mahine ki nanhi jaan ko god mein lekar, maine akele poore ghar ko sambhala. Diye jalane se pehle meri aankhon se aansu nikal rahe the kyunki sharir toot raha tha. Meri beti roti thi, use doodh pilana, use sambhalna aur phir ghar ke kaam mein jut jana—kya kisi ne dekha ki us waqt mujh par kya guzar rahi thi? Maan-maryada ke naam par mujhse har wo kaam karwaya gaya jo ek operation wali aurat ke liye maut ke barabar tha.

16 November: Wo Suni Anniversary:

Log apni anniversary par jashn manate hain, par 16 November ki wo raat mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai. Main itni thaki hui thi ki mujhse khada nahi hua ja raha tha. Sharir mein itni 'business body pain' (badan dard) thi ki lagta tha har haddi toot jayegi. Raat-raat bhar beti jagti thi, main so nahi paati thi aur subah phir wahi chakki ki tarah pisna. Kya yahi ek patni aur ek maa ka naseeb hai? Meri anniversary par mujhe tohfe nahi, balki aur zyada thakaan aur akelapan mila.

Asahniya Dard aur Raaton ki Karvat:

Diwali ki lights toh sabko dikh rahi thi, par mere andar jo andhera tha, wo kisi ko nazar nahi aaya. Meri beti ka chehra dekh kar main apni takleef bhula deti thi, par jab raat ko dard ke maare meri neend ukhadti thi, tab main Baba Shyam se sirf itna puchti thi—'Baba, kya yahi meri zindagi hai? Kya mere hisse mein sirf dard hi likha hai?' Wo November ka mahina meri himmat ka imtihan tha, jahan maine apne shareer ke zakhmon ko ignore karke ek 'perfect' bahu aur maa banne ka dikhaw

a kiya."

4. Donon Nanhi Pariyon ka Saath

Meri donon betiyan hi mera sahara hain. Unka masoom chehra dekh kar hi main ye thakaan jhel pa rahi hoon. Raat-raat bhar unke saath jagna, unki zidd poori karna aur phir subah uth kar wahi ghar ke kaam—jindagi bas ek chakra ban kar reh gayi hai. Log puchte hain main itna kyun thakti hoon? Unhe kya pata ki ek aurat jab andar se toot rahi ho, toh bahar ki thakaan dugni ho jati hai. 2020 ki ye yaadein mere liye bahut bhari hain.

5. Digital Diary: Mera Chupa Hua Dard

Main ye sab yahan isliye likh rahi hoon kyunki mere paas bolne ke liye koi nahi hai. 2020 ka ye November mere liye imtihaan ka mahina hai. Na ghar mein sukoon hai, na mann mein shanti. Bas ye digital diary hai jahan main bina dare apne dil ki baat likh sakti hoon. Aaj jindagi jhand lag rahi hai, thakaan itni hai ki lagta hai bas kahin thar jaon. Par bacchon ke liye ladna hai, unke liye jaagna hai.

Is Kahani se Humein (aur Readers ko) Kya Sikh Milti Hai?

Maa ki Asim Shakti: Ek maa kitni bhi thaki ho, kitni bhi bebas ho, wo apne bacchon ke liye raat ke 3:30 baje bhi jaag sakti hai. Ye post dikhata hai ki maa ka balidan kabhi khatm nahi hota.

Dikhave ki Duniya aur Asliyat: Diwali par sabka ghar roshan ho, ye zaroori nahi. Bahut se gharon mein diye toh jalte hain par mann mein andhera hota hai. Humein logon ke dard ko samajhna chahiye.

Sabar ki Hadd: Jindagi jab 'jhand' lagne lage aur har rasta band dikhe, tab bhi insaan ko apne bacchon ke liye sabar rakhna padta hai.

Digital Diary ka Sukoon: Jab koi sunne wala na ho, toh likhna hi sabse bada sahara banta hai. Apne dard ko andar rakhne se behtar hai use pannon par utaar d

ena.